My side of Tonya

Guest Blog...From Polly...another opinion of a certain Diva
Category: Dreams and the Supernatural
A blog from my another person who knows a certain diva quite well. She considered her a good friend (as did I) To be honest we were stabbed in the back and Amanda you should feel like shit over your inability to be honest. When you look in the mirror I hope your reflection spits in your face. You are too weak for your own good.


I haven't really said to much lately concerning the latest "drama" and now, I feel like it's time I do. I've sat back and let Reap do the talking, and followed with my comments. We have been dealing with bullshit from a Ghost Diva, named Tonya H. She has done nothing but bad mouth us, and try and play the pity card with whatever damn followers she has. Here is my statement, straight from my mouth.

Contrary to what Tonya, may want you to think, I am writing this of my own free will. Reap doesn't even know I'm writing it. I will admit, I am more passive then Reap at times, I'm not him, and he is not me. We both have different ways of dealing with things. Doesn't mean we both don't see bullshit in our yard, we just get rid of it in different styles.

When this crap with Tonya started I bit my tongue, because I cared deeply for another diva. She was a friend that I trusted. Well, now I am going to speak my mind, and if others don't like it there's not a damn reason for me to care.

Tonya, has put many lies out there, and it's about time I step up to the plate and say what the fuck is up. First and foremost, Tonya implied Reap beats me. Does he? Nope! He has never struck me period. I watched my mother growing up get hit, and that is one thing I would never allow a man to do to me. I find it highly insulting as a woman, that Tonya feels that is the only card she has to hold against me. Strength as a woman, is a hell of a lot more then being a single parent, and having a big fucking mouth. Strength as a woman to me means, I love my family, I support them, and when I walk out my front door I have a clear conscience. Reap knows the love I have for him, and he also knows I am my own person.
I am no ones puppet.

The lies she has spread from there get more slanderous. Reap being in prison, never happened. Reap buys his daughter drugs, nope again. That he threatened her kids is the one that really is a kick in the ass. If Reap targets someone, it is for a reason. His threats are never of physical harm, or directed towards anyone other then the screwed up person that caught his attention. He will ride your ass, and expose you for whatever you are doing wrong. Nothing more, and nothing less. He hasn't come to the point he's at for lying. Is he ruthless? Yes, he is when it's called for. If he accuses you of something, he can back it up, you can bet your life on that.

Seems the latest attack is Reap being a drunkard, and drug addict. Um okay whatever. He drinks beer, and like most things can drop it on a dime. Just cause someone likes beer doesn't make you and alcoholic don't you think Tonya? As I recall you drink as well. The next is he's a drug addict......Listen to our show stupid shit, we addressed that one as well. We talk openly about our past. We have done drugs in the past but are both clean now. In fact, I was asked to be a speaker at a N.A. meeting, so judge us, then you judge Faye as well. Go ahead, knock her down for her recovery. Oh wait, that's different or is it? Not in my book.

Now last, if you want to send people to defend you please pick someone smarter then Lucille. She's a moron. Where is all your other "back up buds" to fight for you? Sure, some of the weaker minded people dropped us, but they sure in the hell aren't speaking up. No one is speaking up for you other then Laurel Lee and Lucille.

Boy Tonya great job! You know you kinda remind me of the Paranormal Police. How's that you ask? Well they too were to chicken shit to stray from their page, and their followers to handle the real truth. Something you know nothing about.

In closing....Tonya Fuck Off!

The Diva Factor

I have been addressing the lies of Ghost Diva Tonya H...sorry I can not use her last name because I have been informed by Myspace my account will be deleted if I keep posting about her using her full name.
The reason for this?? Tonya and her little group of followers are pissed at me...wonder why? It is because I have stood up to her and the rest of The Ghost Divas, and I have told the truth.
No worries on one hand because I have copies of emails that will present these 'ladies' as they really are. They are a group of bullies who should be ashamed of what they have done to the paranormal community, and just people in general.
I know some readers may not like the things I say and that is okay...I have talked some serious shit about some people, but I have always been honest or made the point that my point is just my opinion. Even Chris Moon and those who associate with him have not been so low-handed as the Divas, I will give them credit for that.
I have been honest and admitted when I have been wrong. I have not attacked people for no good reason, I have not told lies or made up stories about people. I have gone out of my way to make sure people who were doing wrong were at least given a chance to give their side.
I was a part of The Ghost Divas at one time, I know how they work, and I am ashamed to say I was a part of them as I look back. Now as I think about the the way they work and have become a victim of the poison they try to spread...it makes me sad and I am sorry I ever had a part in their evil and egotistical ways.
The root of all this?? In my opinion it is Tonya H....she is a lunatic. She cares not what she has to say to keep her ego growing, she will continue to lie in order to make herself look smart or she will play the victim to make people pity her. She is the lowest common denominator.
Tammy of the Divas? Tonya's buddy for ten years and told me in an email that Tonya 'has not lied in the ten years she has known her'.....does anyone else see the fault in a statement like that?
Sure the Divas want you to think they are a united front but I have been inside the little click and I can tell you this is not the case.
Amanda W? well the Divas talked shit behind her back as she was welcomed into the group.It is the way they work.
The Divas want to try and make me look like shit? I have a hundred stories to tell and I will tell each one day by day.
I tell the fucking truth and I ask the paranormal community...would you rather have the truth or a group of bullies telling lies and starting shit to make innocent people look bad? It is your call.......The time for being afraid of The Ghost Divas is over it is time to stand up if you don't then you get what you deserve. I have no stake in this I have moved on doing my own thing and it is working out quite well, but I will continue to address this issue...in my spare time.

The Fraud Base

As I have gone along and spent my time listening to many of the frauds involved in life, I think about those involved in the paranormal today. (don't worry I will cover the rest in the future)
The reason I start with the frauds involved in the paranormal first is because they are small time, I will work my way up the ladder as far as how much the subject matter effects people in general.
First of all there is ZERO proof of paranormal occurrence and/or paranormal activity.
All of you who heard, seen or felt something paranormal need to realize something which is very important.....THAT IS NOT PROOF.
There is no argument, no if ands or butts about it. It can be proof to you if you wish but to me the only thing it proves is.....your brain got mixed up.
Easy now, it's not your fault, not directly anyways. The problem NO ONE in the paranormal seems to want to face is...now listen close......You can not trust your own brain...
I may catch some slack for this, but the fact remains. Still don't believe me? Do this before you run around in dark creepy houses at night or wonder around in a graveyard while the moon peeks out behind some gloomy gray clouds....
Read about the organ which sits inside your pretty little head, read about the disorders which afflict many people, even the 'sane' ones. Read about how that thing you think is perfect and will never let you down can sometimes behave in ways not so true to your own perception.
Sorry, did I lose my point?
The frauds....fake psychics like Chip Coffee, who's goal in life seems to be to act like an idiot on TV and harm kids with disorders.
people like Chris Moon who claims to be able to talk to the dead on a device Thomas Edison invented.
For the record, Chris can not talk to dead people on his broken radio for a few reasons. I will share with you the top two.
1) It is impossible to talk to the dead on a broken radio, no matter who made it.
2) Chris Moon is full of shit on so many levels even the dead would tell him to get a life if it was possible to talk to them.
If you have a couple hundred bucks, Chris Moon will be happy to share his delusion with you though.
Next up? The rabid dog psychic, Robbie Thomas. Don't know Robbie? Let me share with you some some background....Robbie likes to use dead children to help him 'sell stadiums' filled with his adoring fans. Robbie likes to take quotes from people like his bartender and use them to make himself look amazing.
When Robbie's bartender says "thanks for the tip" Robbie puts it on his website to help him gain credibility.
I know some of you agree with me about the fact these people are idiots. All they do is make stupid claims which are not even worth considering if you are an intelligent individual.
There is however a flaw in that logic, some people buy into this and they do not deserve to be victims of flawed thinking. Some don't know any better yet. Some people are so saddened by their loss they will fall victim to these insane egomaniacs. Do they deserve what they get? I do not think so. Some of the blind may, but not those who can not make clear choices due to loss of loved ones or ignorance, not those who have not had the chance to know any better.
It is up to those who do know better to speak up against the frauds and bullshit artists. It is up to us to at least try to help those who need it so they may have a chance to understand the real world. We all ride in the same boat and there are some people who need to be thrown the hell overboard......you can quote me on that.....
To be continued....

Ask a stupid question...

I think my points are usually good ones. I try not to ask stupid questions, because there is such a thing in my opinion. If you don't at least try to answer your question before you inquire about it to someone else then you are being not only stupid but lazy too. As I have begun to explore my abilities to convey my thoughts through writing there has been a strange pattern that has emerged.....the lack of replies.
Sometimes I think the absence of any answer to my points or questions is because the person or persons they are directed to think I am angry, most times this is not the case. Why my opinion comes across as angry I do not know. I am opinionated and firm in belief because I give everything so much thought before I lay claim to it. Other times I think the lack of opposing opinion is because the other party dismisses my input as unworthy of a response because I am not popular enough, or do not have enough of the right friends in certain places. Why even bother to waste time replying to someone who doesn't matter, right? But regardless of the reasons, very often my questions go unanswered and sometimes never even acknowledged.
Usually this does not continue to be the case, over time I somehow become important enough to rate an answer to my inquiry. Not only do I suffer unanswered questions, there is the comment killing abilities I posses too. Many times I have posted a comment on a thread and there will be no more comments after that point, not always of course but too many times an active thread has been killed by me.
Moving on so as to support my theory...I get very very little hate mail or mail posing a differing opinion from my own. I consider myself open to intelligent opinions, even those different from my own if they are well formed and thought out. I will admit to having made a rather large spectacle of a considerable number of people (all of whom had it coming to them of course) and have posted my opinion loud and clear about the actions of others but the number of people who have any to say about it is almost non-existent. The only people who do try and debate seem to be the type who are too stupid to realize when they contradict themselves or know when it has been proved beyond any reasonable doubt that they are incorrect about their facts.
I have considered that the patterns I mention here could be a product of my own imagination, but it is to the point now where it has happened too many times for that. I post yet another question and cross my fingers, hoping for an answer.....Why are these things happening?

Walking the high-wire of belief

There are a group of people who think a lot like me. In my time dealing with paranormal people and groups and dealing with skeptical people and groups I kinda find myself caught in-between. I know that there are people in the paranormal camp who will believe in every outrageous claim that comes along and there are those who need some actual proof. The level of proof is where the line is drawn.
In the skeptical camp there are those who will reject any claims that are in anyway paranormal.And of course there are those who realize we can not explain everything because we do not know everything. The level of knowledge that those people think they possess is where the line is drawn.
The problem is where those two lines cross, That is where I reside and neither extreme likes the spot much, some won't even admit it exists.
Beliefs come into play here whether anyone wants to admit it or not. Atheists will tell you their way of thinking is not a religion. That may be true but it is a belief system and it effects what they accept and what they do not in other words, it creates a bias.
In many arguments I hear the logical thinkers ask the paranormal camp 'what are the odds of that occurring?' Well what are the odds we are here as a matter of chance and there is no higher power that had a hand in our creation? Look at how well nature works, from here on earth to across the universe, there are rules, laws, a system, a method to the madness. Scientists talk about there being a certain set of numbers that they must use to explain the theory of everything. It is order, not just a result of randomness that makes what we see around us. Even if we do not know everything yet,what we do know tells us plenty. For every force there is an equal and opposing force so far it continues to be true and even if it were to be shown as incorrect there are enough examples to convince me there is something that exists beyond us here on earth.
The other side of the coin are those who believe in paranormal occurrences and think that some have abilities to tell the future or communicate with spirits of the dead. I've used the number 110,000,000,000 as the number of human who have ever lived, that is not an exact figure, that number is impossible to reach but it is pretty close. If spirits of the dead were somehow residing here wouldn't we likely be over run be spirits? Most investigators or hunters will be found searching a dark cemetery or an old house when the sun has gone down. What is it about the dark that makes us think ghosts prefer it? I think it is the fact that ghosts are an unknown and the dark is where we find ourselves surrounded by things we can not see. That is how the relationship is created.
There is a smaller group who fall between the paranormal fundamentalist and the cynical skeptics. That is where my group of friends and myself stand and fight for our cause. We fend off the extremist from both sides while we attempt to build the middle. We stand for balance and true openmindedness. This is where we will find our answers in the middle of incredible claims of mystical unknowns and the scientific soul-less lack of creator.
In case by writing lacks the talent needed to make my point here, it is balance and it serves us best in every aspect of our lives, from the food we choose to eat to the time we spend sitting in front of the TV to the way we look at our relationships with others, to the way we believe, and what we believe.
The island in the middle where the lines cross and my friends and I stand is not as large as it should be but that will change, it will have to before we can truly move forward in our understanding of our universe because it is balance that keeps us from falling down.